Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Confession...

Alright...so the past few days I guess you could say I got either discouraged or lazy. But it was probably a bit of both. I would take the pictures, follow the rules (sort of) but then I just wouldn't want to put them up on the blog. I almost just decided to delete this, but then I thought of the reasons WHY I made this blog. It was made to document my journey to get healthy-and here was a challenge set before me. A challenge to get back on the bandwagon of the DPD (I had fallen off when I went camping this weekend and was rather reluctant to get back on) and I just wanted to give up-to not be responsible to the people reading this. And in all honesty, I was about to come onto the site and do just that...and then a friend texted me. She said she wanted to share a website with me because she found it inspirational like my blog...and I thought-you mean I actually INSPIRE someone?! And that made me realize that I can't give up on this! If I can inspire someone-even just one person-to be healthy and love their life, then who am I to stop that power? So here I am...updating and hoping that someone somewhere may just get that extra bit of inspiration.

Out of semi-shame I'm only going to post today's and yesterday's food-the other part is more so the fact that I can't remember what day the other pictures belong to....and it kind of makes me nuts, not gonna lie, just posting the actual meals. SO! here's yesterday's food (Monday)
Haha, this looks kind of gross but it was super good! It's plain Greek yougurt, peanut butter (we all know how much I LOVE peanut butter!), splenda (or you could use truvia or some other sweetener) and a mashed up peanut butter granola bar...I promise it is TASTY and LOADED with protein! I got this recepi from a dear friend-who just happens to be getting married this weekend! Congrats T and P!

Lunchtime! Yay for Hawaiian Heystacks!...and ten dollars?
  
I was at work during both snack times so I packed them both and seperately. The right one was mid-morning and the left afternoon. But they're both the same 4:1 almond peanut butter m&m mixture (do you SEE how much I love peanut butter?!)

So yesterday I resisted the whole "I want to quit" urge until dinner...I think it was because I was at work all day...but we had fun size snickers and kit kats in our break room....and I had about 3 of each....*sigh* but I CAN STILL DO THIS! I checked out the website my friend told me about chantelhobbs.com and she said what her big issue was was that she lost faith in herself. And I have that same issue. So I've made a stumble...big deal. I CAN DO HARD THINGS! I've done it in countless other areas of my life-so why am I letting fear get in the way now? YOU MUST CONTINUE TO BELIEVE IN YOUR OWN STRENGTH! Yes of COURSE it's hard resisting foods that have made you fat and unhealthy...but look at your life, what hard things have you accomplished? Here are some of mine:

When I was 11 years old my family moved from Arizona to the Pacific Northwest. I willingly followed my parents (yeah, I had to, but I did so WILLINGLY) to a freezing cold land with no people in it I knew and started a new life.

In high school I was a "guinea pig" for a new academic program...sort of failed at it, but I never once considered just giving up.

While all of my friends went away for college after graduation (my best friend going across the country) I chose to remain at home despite the fact that this made me feel like some sort of failure and completed an AA in General Studies...and made new friends again!

Last summer I traveled to Upstate New York to participate in the LDS Church's production of The Hill Cumorah Pageant-it was rather scary going when I knew no one and kept having thoughts of something happeneing to my family during my 17 day departure and I would have no way of being at their side.

Currently, I am attempting to save money so that in about a year's time I will move away from the security of my parents home for the first time...trust me, that (to me) is a LOT scarrier than loosing weight.

So looking at all these things, I realize something...I CAN DO HARD THINGS!!!!! It just feels good to say that. I may even say that to the scale next time I get on it! :D And if I can do hard things, SO CAN YOU! Because you're probably a much stronger person that me!

Alrighty, on to today's food. Warning: today was a much bigger "I want to quit" day than yesterday. We had starbursts in the back room and I ate about a handful of them. Even with my healthy snack sitting right next to them. *facepalm* oh well....I CAN DO HARD THINGS!!!! And I will do them better now that I've reminded myself of that! 
 Ok, so this picture's caption thing was giving me GRIEF! Granola cereal for breakfast today!

This snack was actually an afternoon snack...so it really should come AFTER the next picture, but it was being difficult...
Lunch time of quesodilla, oreos, and milk
More Hawaiian Heystack! :D It's SO. GOOD!
And some oreos after dinner

And I have a new way of lifing weights that I was going to talk about, but man ALIVE I'm tired and am now going to bed. Night all! And I appologize for any spelling errors...like I said...I'm tired!

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